Life Alert for Damaged Souls?

"Help, I've fallen and I can't get up." Sure this quote is from an old person commercial but it is completely applicable to my life in so many different a For starters, I fell at soccer today..which is not meant to be a metaphor at all. I honestly fell. It hurt my pride and it hurt my back, but I'm alright. Other than that, I am falling for a guy. (When am I not, right?) But this time it's scarier, it's weirder, and I'm more reluctant but I keep giving in. And, maybe I do just want to fall in love for real this time, although I realize the odds of that are extremely slim. And, more tragically everytime I get over the past it comes right back up and tears me down again. I know I don't need my past back or anyone from the past who has been lost along the path to now doesn't need to get back on the bandwagon now. This train is definitely not making any stops to pick up anyone, but still it gets rough to think about the past and lacking the feeling that you have it all together. After losing the routine and balance you once had, you feel kind of out of control and lost, even if things are not that much different. This has ended up as a rant about a whole lot of nothing, but it feels good to even get that amount off of my chest. I am going to try to blog more often, and not just when I am upset...makes me look like an emo kid, huh?