Emaleigh Lost.

So, you know the story of Adam and Eve, right? The two very first people ever made (ever) were in this wonderful garden where life was good and everything was simple (simple enough, anyway) and then one day after being tempted by the serpent to eat some sort of fruit all that changed. All the comfort they had once known was gone and the wrath of God was over them and they had to deal with whatever came upon them. What's the point here, Em? Well, the point is that I was in a sense in the garden, yet getting away with "eating the fruit" and I thought I wasn't going to get caught up in it because someone promised me forever and ever. The only being capable of promising anyone forever and ever is God Almighty. I know that now, but I was blinded by something that was certainly not God or anywhere in the same ballpark as God. Lately I have been slightly trouble by the decisions I made "in the garden." I know I can not dwell upon such mistakes forever, but it's hard to just pick up right after something happens especially when everyone expects you to be perfect. I hate the pressure of people needing me and having high expectations fo me because that leads to the inevitable letdown-plainly and simply. I am trying to be the person who I want to be, but sometimes I am not even sure who I want to be. I imagine myself standing on a teeter tot trying to find the equal balance between good and bad, but I realize I have to go to one side or the other at a certain point. There is no in-between as much as I'd like there to be. I guess my inner-strife is taking a hold of me tonight, but at some point it takes a hold of us all because we are never who we want to be. And in a way, we never really know who we are, do we?